Monday, May 19, 2014

I ain't living in the dark no more, I'm just gonna call it.

Axiom: a self-evident truth that requires no proof; evident without proof or reasoning.

I have spent the last year of my life realizing the impact of what it means to be true to yourself, to find the truths in yourself. After 25 years of life, I have found that there were many truths about myself that I had been ignoring, rejecting, and ashamed of. But the more time I spent walking in the shadow of a lie-a lie that was my own life-the more important it became to me to take in the truth and finally accept myself for who I am. While there was a lot of reasoning that went into my discovery, the ultimate self-evident truth in my life required no proof in the end. Since I discovered and truly acknowledged this axiom, I am the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. I am whole in a way that I had never thought possible.

There is no perfect person, no perfect life, not one story line in humanity that comes without some form of tragedy. My life has been surrounded by a lot of tragedy, and with that, feelings of pain, loss, rejection, fear, and hate have clouded my vision and prevented me from truly seeing. But within the horrible events I have witnessed and experienced, I have gained in myself trust, love, reasoning, humility, and above all, acceptance. Not just for myself for application in my own life,  but in my outlook for others. To let people come as they are, in all shapes and sizes, colors and qualities.

I find that the tragedy of the human condition is that we have taken it upon ourselves to find fault in others as opposed to seeking out the beauty and the good. If only we lived in a world where who we truly are could be loved and accepted, instead of belittled and rejected. I have represented here my greatest self-evident truth: that I am loved by so many for who I am. Despite my human nature, my faults, my mistakes, I am loved and am seen and cared for. And this is how we should all feel-and should strive to make others feel.

The greatest sense of love I have gained since I accepted my axiom is the love I finally have for myself and the person I truly am.