It's not about changing the world. It's about trying not to be changed by it.

I found an old post I wrote when I was 20. My heart still beats the same, for God and people, all these years later.

I Believe

April 2, 2009 at 9:11am

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I believe in Jesus Christ. That he saved me, and this whole world.

I believe in the beauty of the world. Even when you don't always look for it, beauty exists in everything.
Some people do not believe there is beauty in this world. I want to be able to be an example of that beauty and show it to as many people as I can.

I believe in forgiveness. Sometimes people do things that no one could possibly see good in. But things happen, and forgiveness must come as time passes. There is no now like this one.
Some people do not believe in forgiveness..I want to show them how amazing it is to know that it will set them free.

I believe in the good in people. No matter who you are, what you may have done, or how much you have changed..people are good. The world is filled with evil , but so many people prove to me on a daily basis that good exists, because people care, and are real. I want to be one of those people.

I believe in love, even when I don't feel it. Because I know I am loved by someone who will never stop loving me. And although as humans we suffer because of brokenness, I strive to show and be shown that Christs love can conquer all things, and heal even the deepest of wounds. Love is real..even when you don't feel it.

I believe in miracles. I have seen God's hand in my life, in the lives of others. God changes people. God changes lives. God grants miracles.

I believe in change. Change isn't always good, but if I didn't believe in it, I wouldn't be able to accept where God has placed me now. We always want to know the future..but in knowing the future we can't accept it. we have to take each day as it comes because otherwise..nothing would ever be worth living for.

I believe in 70 x 7. Matthew 18:21-22. It has set me free.

I believe in kindness..even though it isn't always returned. Sometimes this is the most difficult thing in the world.But I don't want to change ME..because of hate. Always love:) Hate will get you every time.

I ain't living in the dark no more, I'm just gonna call it.

Axiom: a self-evident truth that requires no proof; evident without proof or reasoning.

I have spent the last year of my life realizing the impact of what it means to be true to yourself, to find the truths in yourself. After 25 years of life, I have found that there were many truths about myself that I had been ignoring, rejecting, and ashamed of. But the more time I spent walking in the shadow of a lie-a lie that was my own life-the more important it became to me to take in the truth and finally accept myself for who I am. While there was a lot of reasoning that went into my discovery, the ultimate self-evident truth in my life required no proof in the end. Since I discovered and truly acknowledged this axiom, I am the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. I am whole in a way that I had never thought possible.

There is no perfect person, no perfect life, not one story line in humanity that comes without some form of tragedy. My life has been surrounded by a lot of tragedy, and with that, feelings of pain, loss, rejection, fear, and hate have clouded my vision and prevented me from truly seeing. But within the horrible events I have witnessed and experienced, I have gained in myself trust, love, reasoning, humility, and above all, acceptance. Not just for myself for application in my own life,  but in my outlook for others. To let people come as they are, in all shapes and sizes, colors and qualities.

I find that the tragedy of the human condition is that we have taken it upon ourselves to find fault in others as opposed to seeking out the beauty and the good. If only we lived in a world where who we truly are could be loved and accepted, instead of belittled and rejected. I have represented here my greatest self-evident truth: that I am loved by so many for who I am. Despite my human nature, my faults, my mistakes, I am loved and am seen and cared for. And this is how we should all feel-and should strive to make others feel.

The greatest sense of love I have gained since I accepted my axiom is the love I finally have for myself and the person I truly am.